I had a dream last night that is really sticking with me. A dream that was so real and it's meaning so deep.
In short, the dream took place in a large city where a large Christian rock concert was to take place with a certain unnamed band (I don't believe the band name is relevant to the meaning of the dream.) Apparently the show was sold out. I had the opportunity to get backstage with the artist and see the set-up. I had free passes to get into the show and the energy around the arena was electric. Lines of people wrapped around the building. At one point in the dream, I walked outside to the crowds of people and announced, "Who wants free passes?" Multiple people rushed me for them.
Outside the arena I remember having access to another arena but it wasn't as pulsating with people. Actually, the access was limited to a few. In the dream, this 'other arena' seemed like the Holy of Holies and the entrance to this mysterious place was small and high up alongside the building. Inside this Holy Place there were 8-12 people that represented the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. It was as if the Father was one group of people, the Son another group, and the Holy Spirit yet another group of people. There were men, women and children throughout the groups.
I know this sounds weird and unusual but stay with me here.
The Christian rock show started up, the doors opened and people came running to fill the seats. Smiles. Laughter. Excitement filled the air. You couldn't help be excited as well.
The arena doors remained open as the loud and powerful music filled the room and flowed outside.
My viewpoint was from outside and above these open doors. I don't remember seeing inside the arena with the sold-out show but my perspective remained the same above the doors.
Then something happened. Something very moving.
Something that is hard to put into words but I'll try.
The group of people in the Holy Place left the 'other arena' and started walking into the open doors of the arena. The Father, Son and Holy Spirit came to be worshipped and to meet with His children.
Something in me broke and in the dream I began to weep, mourn and heave greatly. I somehow knew as the Lord was walking into the room that He would be forgotten, unwelcome, not sought after. I simply remember weeping as His steps drew closer to the door and then the group disappeared from my view.
Soon after that, the group was seen leaving those same open doors...in brokeness.
When I woke up, the song from Phil Wickham titled 'EDEN' has been playing in my spirit, which is exactly what I'm listening to as I write this.
The chorus says...
I want to see You face to face
Where being in Your arms is the permanent state
I want it like it was back then
I want to be in Eden
To be naked and unashamed
In a sweet down pour of innocent rain
I want it like it was back then
I want to be in Eden
I am moved this morning to seek the Lord and fast for His presence. Victory has declared a season of revival, June 2-June 8, and I am shaken by the call to seek Him wholeheartedly.
Please hear my heart regarding the dream. I don't believe the dream was meant to bash or rebuke the Christian concert or artist. It was meant to SHAKE and BREAK my hardened heart.
Am I genuine in my seeking of the Lord? Am I prepared to enter the Holy Place? Am I making space for the Living God to visit me and dwell eternally? Am I going with the motions of 'singing' nice Christian songs and yet forgetting the desperate need for a genuine Christ-like walk? Does the Lord feel welcomed and worshipped in my life? If He visits, will He find my heart prepared or will He simply turn around and walk away because I have forsaken and rejected Him?
I know, I know, I know...these are tough questions. But they need to be asked...and answered.
If you made it to this last statement in this blog let me ask you, will you join me in preparing for His visitation? Can we enter, together, into a season of mourning over sin and seeking His comfort? Can we prepare a place where God will greatly desire to come and dwell amongst us?
"Lord, maker of Heaven and Earth, we desire Your presence and power. We want You. Prepare and break our hearts for what breaks Yours. Expose sin. Pierce us with truth. Transform us with Your power. Raise us to new life. We are Yours."
